I LOVE YOU SHAZWANI ZULKEPLEE..

But i jus cant understand why must u do this to me.. For months i did stop trying to take break up as a solution..U gave me probs during my exam i hold on and i didnt mention aniting bout breakups but sadly till now u have the guts to talk about walking away..And seriously u did walk away..I cant understand wat u wanted from me..why cant u jus let me be happy wid my lyfe..Why cant u jus take things easy and take it that lyfe is suppose to be a fun and joyful one? Issit that hard? Why? I jus wanna noe why..U told me i lyke ungkit..But now im telling u.U lyke doing the things in the past...Actions speaks louder den words... U did worst den my mouth cos wat u did before is happening again...

Im Still Loving u Oh Shazwani!!!

Hehe..Thats the truth..That will alwaes be in my heart...Sumtymes i told u i feel lyke bein single..But sumtymes, i feel tt i wanna be with u..But then, i tried my best saving the relationship and i need ur help too..It aint working out.. I asked u to learn and all...But im not sure if im learnin too..Haizzz... Things are better dis way but im afraid if u'll find sumone new..Im really afraid of tt.. And for me, i tried my best filling my tyme wid friends, my sleep, games and videos... Im dun wanna get new contacts or even hav the tinking of having sumone new or dating sumone..I wanna be single as last tyme..The tyme tt i was fat..The tyme where no gerls look upon me...It was stress free..Aint no feeling of lonely without gerls..Hehee..I miss the old ayie..Even though the old Ayie was stupid and immature, but he hav a good lyfe... For now, im becoming matured, tinking of the future, jadi abang2 rilex, no fights, hatred, and all those immatured tinkings...I'll try..As daily lyfe carry on, i'll learn from every mistakes i made or encounter...I'll try not to repeat it..But we're humans, imperfect creature, soo im sorry if i did it again...
HAizz....
Im soo missing WAni...
I guess no on   knows i reopen dis journal cos i guess, i can let out my feelings here..And den, erm, dunnoe lar..Hahahaha..But it feels good typing ur feelings and emotion..I wonder who noes bout my journal..Tkpe lah..Since u guys read it, tt means u guys noe..But dear ppl, kalau boleh, dun make a fuss bout my lyfe, wat i've goin tru, and all okay if u guy read dis journal...
After reading my past post, my post all look sick and childish..Hahahaha...I guess tts wad make me afterall.. A childish person who makes lame jokes and shiok sendiri..But tyme flew fast.. Its been soo long i nvr been single.. I miss sat night lyfe wid eir and members... Lepak2 pat bb..Lamer siol tk lepak2... Lyfe getting diff... Eir FYP..Dilly skool stuff...Wah..Soo many changes in lyfe..

Even my looks change!! Hahahaa..Ni bukan nak kerek or wat ah..
Memang aku gemok..But pics taken now are difff from my pics in previous post..Hahaha..

Hahahaa...Perot stoppit!! Hmmm trying my best to re shape my body for her... Shazwani... =DD..
She's jus a great motivater for me... Hehehe...

I jus cant stop loving her no matter how imperfect she is...
I LOve U ShAzWani...!!! And I miss u badly....

Takecare all...!!!  =)

Hahahaaa..The mood came.. To write down the crapiness i've done..Heheee..Sumtymes i wonder who will read my journal lor..Maybe noone or even ppl i dunnoe..Soo im here to say HI!! Hahahaha..LAme sak..
Niwae thanks for reading my journal.Its nothing much but atleast u noe how cruel, bad, or lame i am.I noe im not a good guy lar as u seen.I hurt ppl.I never made sumone happy and all..But i'l llearn though..But i tink i wanna close down dis journal..No point to letting ppl noe wads happening in my lyfe from afar..Wanna noe den jus be frens..Meet up and tok or wad lor.. Soo for now, i tink my lyfe gonna be simple.And i wanna say sorry to everyone that i've hurt..
Esp for tt broken promise..Its my fault for telling and atleast its onli a person.I noe even though its  onli a person but still its a promise.My fault i noe.Im at wrong.I shudnt tell at all.Hmmm..This will be a lesson from me.No more breaking of promises animore.I smile wen i see ur happy wid lyfe and all..Its betta u wid him cos his lyfe is much2 diff den mine..He's more fun & gerek type den me..He sure is betta.Yup yup..Hope u all last..Im not a hypocrite..I dun wanna be..I dun..Tts y i noe its my fault and im sorry..Good bye to you!!! Takecare..And Get well soon kaes..Italic words are alwaes meant for u..Paham2 Baybeh....Hehee.
Okay Dah...And all those readers who wish to noe me more, add me up in my MSN jek lor..
fathul_ayie@hotmail.com..
Thanks All..Leaving all this memories for a new start..Btw, Im neutral..
No grudges or hatred cos dis world need peace..
I really mean it..Sooo dear enemies, chill out kaes..
Feel free to tok to me once again kaes...
Bye alll..Takecare yars..
Happy when u all are..Hehee.. =))

ShaZzOut!!

Thanks dear frenS for all ur support...
   I noe she's not worth it for me..
       She hurt me damn damn bad...
           As u all said, im stupid if go back to her.. 
               I Agree!! Hahahaa.. I hope she'll feel wad i felt..
                   For now, i love my fwens tt hav been dere wid me all along..
                        Thanks yar all..Niwae, deres no nid to teach the guy a lesson..
                              Its wat the gerl wants.So let it be..Hahaha.. 
                                      Even though i noe u guys wanna do sumtyn to him..Hahaha..
                                      Chill ar..Not worth it sak..But if u guys really do bcos  
                                           of ur  own problems against him..
                                                Tu korang nyer psl.Hahaha..Aku tknk msk campor..Hahaha
                                             And i found a cool pic..Hahaha..So jus hope korang last ar..
                                             That Diah And Hiwsnew guy..Hahaha..
                                         

Sweet per dlm bilik pelok2..Hahaha

                               Hahahaha..Quick right..Baru break dah ader matair sak dier..Hahaha..If onli gerls were lyke her.It'll be end of the world for sure..Hahahahaa..k ar..Enuff of tokin..Takecare fellow readers..Hahahaa..